I worry a lot about where I am headed. I make poor decisions about my health and I spend a lot of my life doing things that are in the opposite direction of my goals. I break promises to myself every day. I remember in 2006 waiting to board a plane to Italy feeling healthy, in love, and knowing my life kicked ass.
And now, no, not so much. Now life is kicking my ass.
Being in therapy I am learning about self care. That creepy phrase means taking care of myself so that I am not so stressed and miserable that the only way I can get out of it is to overeat. My therapist told me I had to wake up every day and think of 2-3 things I needed to do to take care of myself. Well, she actually didn’t specify a number, but then I asked her for a number, she didn’t throttle me and we (I) landed on 2-3. (Hey, at least it is a RANGE… I’m being flexible here, people.)
And then I created a spreadsheet to make sure I recorded the 2-3 things that I did for myself and that I was hitting my goal. No, I am not kidding. I really did that. I am superdiddly crazy.
<NONSEQUITOR – I’ll bring it all together, I promise.) My friend Mandy had this awesome post last week on her blog. I went back to that picture many times last week because it was so cool – the picture was a perfect synopsis of who Mandy is and who she will be. And that the best is yet to come. I still can’t put into words why it spoke to me so much – except that is going to be Mandy *exactly* when she is 70 – because everybody who knows her sees her living her life to get there, and that I am lucky to know someone so wonderful who just gets better every day.
So today I decided I wanted to find some inspiration… rather than logging “knitted for 30 minutes” in a spreadsheet to hit my I AM TAKING CARE OF MYSELF metrics, I wanted a picture and a mission that inspire me to start being the person I want to be.
7 Everyday Tenets.
I like things in seven – and these are things I am going to do every day. The unspoken 8th tenet is that I am not going to put these in a spreadsheet. I promise.
Every day I am going to:
- Listen to a great song.
- Move a lot.
- Do something original.
- Reflect before I eat.
- Find 15 minutes of quiet.
- Respect the plans I made for myself.
- Keep enough for myself.
Those are awesome, right? I f’ing know.
I knew I wanted a picture like Mandy’s, and I had a vague idea of an older woman rocking her buttocks off with big headphones on or laughing really hard. Google images and a lot of time resulted in this:
This picture tells a story of where I want to go – a woman who still is ornery and hilarious and loves awesome music. I also like that most of her is unwritten – I don’t know what my healthy body will look like yet – it may be 10 lbs or 100 lbs away – but it is unwritten.
(sidebar – why o why o why must google image searches always include a picture of a warty foot no matter what I search for – is there someone out there tagging warty foot pictures with every word in the English language??)
O yea, I did one of these too – this is a draft:
My mission is to live a life of gorgeous awesomeness by laughing too much, learning smartypants stuff, loving myself, my friends, and my family even more than we deserve, and creating always. Oh, eschewing conventional thinking, jealousy, and fear.