By April of last year, I had completely abandoned tracking my yearly goals – I had gone off the rails so badly that I didn’t want to know the bad news.
This year is different – I still am going to fall short of many of my key goals – but I made sure I had plenty of goals around stuff that I liked to do. I wanted to make sure I got credit for the stuff I am good at – not just focus on the “areas of improvement”. I fail every year if I look at the stats that I hold myself too. But I am not a failure. And so there is one more month left to hit my goals.
I cried big stress tears the first time I got a B when I was in school – so disappointed in myself. How stupid. I now am confident enough to look at my good and bad qualities, and to know on balance that it is ok. Bad with money and food – too introverted – messy. But fun and generous and creative and smart. Just like everybody else in the world – both awesome and shitty.
And so I am shooting for a 75.02% for my yearly goals. A solid C – definitely not where I wanted to end this year at – but soooo much better than an Incomplete. I didn’t give up on myself – I kept plugging away and keeping track of every mile, every class, every pound gained and lost.
To hit 75.02%, I have to complete the following in the last month of 2010:
58.9 miles – This one will be the hardest – it is more miles than I have completed any other month this year. Completing miles requires focusing on this goal every day. Every day I have to face the lethargy of just not doing it. I so admire those people who make exercise a given – part of their schedule that they almost never sacrifice. I want to be one of those people – and I am closer than ever.
7 exercise classes – Because of time and money constraints, I stopped attending classes with Mandy this year for a short time. I am back into a regular routine – making it a priority to go to her earlier class so that I can get it done. I am not perfect about making this a priority – but I am pretty darn good. I have two more weeks of Mandy’s classes – and then a panic attack as she starts her maternity leave. I have found a body sculpt class at my gym that I am going to try – I don’t want to lose the ground I have gained.
14 lbs – I am losing weight pretty steadily on the diet I have been following. I know this is definitely a streeeeetch goal, but I lost 14 lbs in the last six weeks so I am going to forge ahead.
2 books – I think I may *finally* start the Harry Potter series. My stepkids have me hooked on the movies – and who am I to go against bazillions of readers?
2 crafts – Piece of cake, of course. I am waaaaaay ahead on this goal for a year.
1 class – I want to finish the next in the art:21 series – I learn lots and learning about all those artists definitely makes me think more creatively.
1 Cultural Even – Probably a holiday play with my friends. I wish one of my goals this year was form a circle of awesome friends to do awesome things with. Because I nailed that goal.
30 blogs – I always have things to write about – it is just that I don’t always have the inclination to clean off my desk of craft stuff to get to the keyboard so that I can write.
That is a lot in one month! Wish me luck… 75.02, here I come!